But no matter what I wish for I'm still firmly grounded in reality. I am who I am. I have what I have. And I have to figure out how to use it to the best of my advantage. I know we say that "bigger isn't always better" and "it's not what you have, it's how you use it", but sometimes that's hard to believe.
After all, God is the one who put together and gave me the unique blend of personality traits, and I need to be grateful for the blessings that I do have. I'm doing my best muddling along just as lil ole me anyway, but I think it's okay to have an objective standard and try to improve yourself though.
Despite the fact that it's maybe a little controversial to admit these things I'm going to do it anyway. I mean some woman have been really blessed and I think it's worth the time to look at what they're doing and see if it's something that I can copy to boost my meager self up.
Now, I don't want to be too critical of myself and I don't want to set other woman up on a pedestal based just on this one superficial thing because other stuff counts as well, but I'm going to do it anyway. I mean, can't we all be honest and share with each other? I'm putting this out there for a reason, just bear with me. I want to share some personal stuff on a more regular basis and I just want there to be a foundation of honesty, acceptance, and understanding.
I mean, size is just a NORMAL thing. It's nothing to be embarrassed about. We're all at different places on our journey. I'll go first so you all don't feel shy.
I am a pretty solid B cup... of therapeutic parenting skills at this point. I haven't been doing this that long, but I do have some experience. (What did you think I was talking about?) I wish that I had more and could use what I had with more ease and efficiency, but I'm working on it. There are moms that I know and admire greatly that are therapeutic parents and they rock it. I look at them and I'm blown away at what they can handle, what they accomplish, what they've survived, and what they've given back. When I grow up I want to be them, but for now, I'm padding my cup (therapeutic parenting cup) by reading, learning, trying, experimenting, and I'm looking forward to when I can give back and help those who are just starting out. Until then, I'm just I'm gonna keep on workin' what I have.
Carry on, trauma mamas!